After more than a month of going home to an empty house, I thought that everything will normalize and Ill get used to living alone. But not a bulk of DVD’s, chatting and surfing the Net will ever be as calming as just watching TV with my wife and kids. There’s something in the simplicity of being with them that makes you feel warm and i dunno, maybe secured. It may well be that I have admitted that Im mentally unstable (lol) that I yearn for my family and that I use that blanket to make me feel that everythings all right? That question will remain as I dont want to pay a shrink and tell me at the end of the session that, “iho, mentally unstable ka!”. Baka masapak ko lang sya.
Well, the ignorance of psychology really bothers me and the question remains. Would boredom kill you? As in aatakihin ka na lang dahit lahat na ng langgam sa bahay mo e nabilang mo and yes, walang halong alkohol o drugs yun. Ano ba pwedeng mangyari sa sobrang bato mo sa araw mo? Nasubukan ko na uminom ng maaga? mag jogging ng twice a day at syempre ang saturday ritual ko na mag grocery na nagdadagdag lang ng lungkot sa buhay ko kase naaalala ko asawa ko. At bakit? Kase sya dati nagbabayad ng grocery ngaun ako na!
Thank god for my Visa that if I reach the breaking point I can just leave everything behind and buy a ticket and fly. nde naman leave everything sayang naman. Which bring me to another topic…Kelangan mo ba ng furniture and appliances? Binebenta ko na kase lahat ng gamit ko. Happy Shopping! :)
Senor,
Kung gusto mo, samahan kita mag-jogging pati mag-shopping!
Anu-ano ba ang binebenta mong gamit?
Nabenta ko na lahat. My sister bought all my stuff ng isang lot! You still owe me beer before I leave. ;)